In a relationship ? Do not forget your friends !

This has got to be one of the worst crimes a girl or guy can commit !!!

When you get in a relationship DO NOT DITCH YOUR FRIENDS !!!! 

Yes you love this person, Yes you'd be happy to spend all your time with that person (maybe)
But you do not ditch your friends, it's literally crazy to me why people do this !

Your friends were there for you pre " soulmate ", your friends were there supporting you when your family threw you out, they were there when you drunkenly slept with that person who even now you still cringe when admitting it. They were there when you accidentally liked a 2 year old post on your ex's social media page, They were there to help you discover what goes where, they were there when you were lonely and sobbing into your ice cream telling everyone how much you want to be in a relationship. They love you warts and all !

DO NOT THROW THAT PERSON AWAY !! 

I know that you are sure you'll never ever break up with the person your in a relationship with, but when shit hits the fan whether it be a break up or something as dramatic as sudden death. I promise you, you are going to wish that you never neglected your friends because who will you have to talk too ?

Even if said friend welcomes you back with open arms because they're that fantastic and they are willing to forgive you, one thing is for sure, they will never ever forget, whether they ever admit it to you or not, you hurt them. You hurt them bad, you basically phased out your friends, not only will you of really hurt them, but you can guarantee that they would have lost a lot of respect and you'll probably find out they have lost a lot of patience for you too.

Love your friends, they are such important pieces in your life, friendship is so valuable, protect it.

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What's in my handbag ?

This is seeming a popular choice, So I thought why not haha !!

Here goes nothing !!

1. My Handbag is a ' bessie ' bag, Found in TK Max haha !
2. My Sunglasses are French Connection
3. Nivea Stress protect deodorant ... When I stress I sweat xD ... ( over share ) 
4. So Kiss Me perfume, it's so cheap but always love the smell, and just ran out of perfume that day !
5. Subway vouchers, because it's the best day ever when they come through your door haha !
6. Nivea rescue and care sos hand balm
7. Centrum vitamins, ( my diet deffo needs work, got to get my vitamins somehow !)
8. Sony headphones that I stole from my ex ... plan on getting some cute girly ones haha !
9. A hangbag holder, you put it on the edge of the table and it holds your handbag so it doesn't have to go on the floor ! ... Genius right ?
10. Proplus, When you work in a busy retail store and you don't like coffee these can fast become your best friend.
11. My keys, with a sex and the city inspired ' love ' keyring.
12. A bobby pin, because wherever a girl goes a bobby pin must follow ... FACT !
13. A Tampon because you know ... Never get caught out haha !!
14. An Empty oh dear ... An empty thorntons milk chocolate smiles wrapper, because those things are Amazingggg
15. More eyeliner and lipgloss/sticks than a girl needs in her handbag, some by Barry M some by Rimmel.

It's been more than 24 hours !!

I made it 24 hours !!

Infact it's been more than 24 hours and

 ( as much as a psycho it's going to make me sound ), it's the first time since my ex choose too walk out of my life that I haven't stalked his twitter. It's been just over a month that I have obsessively and unhealthily been stalking the hell out of his Twitter, I don't even know why I do it, I don't even know what I'm looking for ? 

That's a lie I do ! I'm looking for the tweet where he declares what a massive mistake he made. A tweet that I know would never happen in a million years. However despite fighting with myself, yesterday I didn't check his account at all. Ladies, and perhaps gentlemen this is progress haha !! 

Don't get me wrong, I'm sure I'll be checking it 2 or 3 times today to make up for it haha !  

( hopefully not ! ) 

But slowly I'm getting there ....

Getting over this guy has been the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life, Really thought I had found the right one. But I'm trying to remember that even if you really can't see the reason at the time, I do believe that everything happens for a reason  ... Bring on the day where I only stalk him once in a blue moon ... because yes, I will always and forever will be a stalker haha !

... Well, I don't stalk, I investigate !!

Recipe ; Chicken with soy sauce and chinese 5 spice

This is one of my favourite recipes, my signature dish ( the only dish haha !! )

It's Chicken with boiled rice and cashew nuts, with a Chinese 5 spice and soy sauce sauce, it's not spicy but it definitely gives it a kick, it's full of flavour !

You can cook it for date night, you can take it into work with you, or you can cook it for a nice dinner for one, perfectly accompanied with a glass of rose wine haha !

The recipe is below ! :) 

Ingredients
* Soy sauce
* Chinese 5 spice 
* Cashew nuts 
* Boiled rice ( I just use uncle Ben's long grain boiled rice ... takes 2 mins and it's lush ... easy :) )
* BBQ sauce
* Chicken Breast

Recipe

1. Dice the chicken into pieces
2. Put the chicken in the pan with some soy sauce ( so the pan doesn't burn and also gives it that nice flavour right away )
3. Keep stiring the chicken around to really coat the chicken in the soy sauce, then as the chicken is slowly cooking add in the Chinese 5 spice, shake it evenly over the chicken and continue to stir. Make sure the spices don't clump up.
4. Now it's time too add in the BBQ sauce, The soy sauce will have evaporated and we don't want the pan to burn. Don't put too much in, you just want a little dollop ( same as you'd put on your plate ) Keep stiring the chicken and the sauce together. Now would be a good time to put your rice in the microwave.
5. Once all the BBQ sauce has soaked into the chicken, add that bit more soy sauce to cool down the BBQ taste ( as that isn't meant to be the main taste it just gives it that kick !)
6. This is optional but I would add in that little bit more of Chinese 5 spice now, just a sprinkle
7. Add in the rice and cashew nuts, mix it all together and PHOWLA !!
8. Enjoy !!!! :)

Let me know what you think to this recipe, it's extremely quick and easy to make and tastes great !

What I plan to do with my new free time ?

Bit of a more lighthearted post ! :)

I am sure none of these will even happen, because something you need to know about me is my willpower is almost none existent haha ! But now I have all this free time here's what I would ideally like to do with it !

Keeping in mind that people say no one can truly love you until you truly love yourself, so here's a few things to make me into the new and improved me !!

1. Learn a new language ( even if it is for bitter reasons so I can catch customers out at work when there talking in their own language, I can reply and freak them out a little haha ! ) So basically Arabic or Polish then haha !

2. Lose ( a lot ) of weight so I will look hot in some new sexy clothes, and if I come across any ex's they will kick themselves !

3. Goes with above but build up my fitness !

4. After 3 failed attempts already !! Pick up my driving lessons again and hopefully pass ... 4th time lucky anyone ? 

5. This one might not be for a while, but get myself into a new job, something with more career prospects and something I might really really enjoy ! :)

As usual, feel free to comment ! :)

Strong vs Damaged ?

As previously mentioned in my introduction I am have just gone through an extremely painful breakup, now as much as I am SO SO thankful I am that I am no longer crying myself to sleep to the point where I genuinely needed babysitting ( I even had to have friends over to stay ! ) I can't help but think, how has it ONLY been a month, literally only a month and somehow I'm starting to feel pretty much okay ?

Am I really that strong or have I just learnt to bury my feelings ? I loved him more than I have ever loved anyone in my life. As adamant as I was at the time that he was the one, is this a sign that he wasn't ? At the beginning the pain of missing him was unbearable, though now when I am getting a tad upset about it now, I know it's only the affection and attention I am missing rather than him himself !

Certain friends of mine have been a great help, I have been fortunate to have someone to talk too constantly if I need too, or to take me out and take my mind off it, I've even, ( as harsh as it may seem to others ) , have been fortunate enough to have friends to tell me to snap out of it or I'm going to make myself ill. Certain friends have been great, and I say this a lot but I genuinely don't know what I would of done without them, I would still be crying several times a day that's for sure ! I love you !!! :)

So I've reluctantly thrown myself back into single life, laughing with my single friends about how awful men can be, spending my nights eating junk food and watching trash TV, trying to keep myself distracted by going out with friends and going swimming. I've even put myself on those god awful dating sites, not that I'm looking for anything at all, but it never hurts to get a bunch of compliments from guys, and if anything half the messages can be pretty entertaining, how half of them can consider themselves human I don't even know !!!

Don't get me wrong there is a lot I miss about him, but apart from his smile, god I loved his smile so so much, it literally made me so happy to see his smile ( okay now it hurts a little ) Everything I miss about him isn't so much about him ! I miss his dogs ... I miss his mum ... I miss us going on days out and to restaurants, there's not that much that I actually miss about him himself.

I was stupid ? If you want to call it that ? Stupid enough to try the whole the best way to get over someone is to get under someone method. Did it help ? ( As unhealthy as it was ) I do think that it has helped me. Even if it's just a little, I couldn't face the thought of being with anyone else, I couldn't even imagine sitting across the table from anyone new never mind anything else. To be fair the New part is still a little nerve wracking, ( I was stupid enough to go backwards and have a one night fling with an old flame ... okay okay .. two old flames .. oh god what was I doing !! ) But now the new part scares me for a different reason, I was terrified to be with someone new because I only wanted him, no one else but him. But now I'm only nervous that the someone new would bring up what happened with my ex and when was I last single and why it ended and I'd burst out crying .... not a look I would be trying to achieve haha !! But I'm sure as time goes by that that would fade and wouldn't happen regardless, Have to keep reminding myself that it's only been a month !!

Perhaps I should stop asking questions and just be extremely thankful that I'm starting to get back to my old self again :) .... I was so low I started annoying and scaring myself haha ! ..... It feels good to finally start getting back to normal again :)

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